God is unbounded, infinite, vast. God is oceanic and we are like dewdrops. We have to learn the art of disappearing into the ocean. It needs guts, because to disappear into the ocean means to die as a dewdrop. Because unless one dies as a dewdrop one cannot be born as the ocean. When the seed dies as a seed a great tree is born. The seed disappears; only through its disappearance does the tree appear. The ego has to die, only then are you reborn. Dying to the past so that you can live in the present. To experience god is to experience at the same time the death of the ego. It is a death and a resurrection: the death of darkness and the birth of light.